Updated: Sep 21, 2021
Stillness is where you will find Me
I remember the day "oh so clearly" when I had my breakdown... it was April of 2019, the Friday before Resurrection Sunday. I felt so defeated and drained from trying so hard to make things work in my own strength and timing. And, when I say "things", I mean the coping of the loss of my mother, the loss of my relationship, and most importantly the loss of self. I didn't know who I was and where I was going, but I did know that I had to continue to press forward because I had a "little human" my daughter watching me closely.
I remember asking God the question, "Why I can't get out of my own way"...he simply replied , as clear as the words coming off this page "It's your thinking." In that moment it felt like something died in me, which was my need for control and my desire to be the driver of my life. I laid "my will" at the foot of the cross and surrendered. On the third day, I felt a rebirth in my mind, heart, and spirit. And, I began to understand the words of Jesus, "Take up your cross and follow Me."
As I began this new found freedom in Christ, I made a conscious decision to work towards thinking differently and learning to be patient with God's timetable, not my own. I knew that the change would not happen over night because there were things beyond the surface that I needed to be delivered and healed from, that was not present to the naked eye.
But, of course being human I wanted the change NOW... that's' when I heard in a soft and gentle voice "stillness in where you find me." God wanted me to be still and know that He is God! That he is God over the healing process of my mom, my relationship with others and my relationship with SELF. This word alone helped me for what was to come.
The encounter with God over the course of 3-days (Friday- Sunday 2019) was like a shedding of layers, the beginning of a new and fresh anointing upon my life. However, I'm not going to say that everything got better, actually things got worse...I loss my uncle (my mom's brother) in July of 2019, and my "main man" grandfather (my mom's dad) in December of 2019, along with layoffs from jobs and a merry-go-round of relationship woes.
Through it all, God's love for me remained constant, and my need to be still in him grew stronger because it allowed me to remain steadfast in his promises of restoration, wholeness, faith, and peace. He is definitely a way maker and a promise keeper to those who diligently seek him.
Read & Reflect on God's Word:
"He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”
- Psalm 46: 10
Think about It:
What areas in your life that God is requiring for you to be still and trust him?
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Disclaimer: I am only a messenger of his word, a vessel to be used by the true and living God to speak to the hearts and minds of his people by speaking MY TRUTH. This message may not be for everyone, but for those who have a willing ear, let them hear. In Jesus' Name, Amen.